Video game? Matrix? Truman show? Capgras? Solipsism?

Are you soulless robots? (video game)

Actors? (Truman show)

Expansions of my mind? (solipsism)

Aliens impostors in familiar forms? (capgras)


(For now, I am not hostile towards the impostors/actors etc, but numb from the suspicions. Numb, I don’t know how to proceed.
I don’t know how should I act towards them.
Could anyone help?  Alienation) 

Can capgras involve my mustache?
I think it does.
I feel that my mustache has been replaced
by the mustache of Meher Baba.
Neighbors have been replaced by identical aliens, and I live in a movie set. Sun is a lamp in a laboratory. Or just simulation, video game

Phenomenology/mythology of the beings

Goddess Annette: Kali, female force, like black sun with black beams, or like black sea urchin.
She does the running commentary, making me mindful of everything all the time.

Isidore: good voice, representative of Goddess Annette.

Lucifer: One of the three forms of Beast 666, (the other two are Devil and Satan, and the fourth being connecting them, tying them together: Beelzebub).

Louisa: evil voice, representative of Lucifer.
She is the partner of Beelzebub, mother of the 27000 demons.

Meher Baba: good voice, his mustache is a blessing. He praises me as the biggest Buddha of this era.

Captain Beefheart: his mustache intertwined with my brain neurons doing damage and causing chaos.

Archangel Michael: the eastern window.

Archangel Gabriel: the northern window.
I caress the windows, praying.

Mr Thoughtless: childish hebephrenic voice that takes over me making me do silly grimaces and gestures, makes me walk, run, jump, shout, say neologisms etc.

Jesus: good voice, supportive, telling me I am in Kingdom of heaven already.

Ian Curtis: voice of the dead singer of Joy Division, talking from the Hades/underworld, where he is but a shadow.

27000 demons: talking gibberish, all of them with one voice, simultaneously.

My schizophrenia

2 mustaches:
Captain Beefheart's mustache intertwined with my brain neurons doing damage and causing chaos in my brain. 
Meher Baba’s positive mustache blessing me.

Mr Thoughtless- childish hebephrenic guy,
taking over me, making me do silly things,
stupid gestures and grimaces, walking, jumping, running, shouting, saying neologisms etc.

I feel I am the only reality and all beings are soulless robots, or actors, or my self expanded, or just one alien with infinite forms and shapes.

My pdoc may be a soulless robot.
I sent him a message yesterday on his smartphone.
Maybe he remembles a living being externally,
but internally he may be empty, without consciousness.

Also running commentary on my actions and thoughts. I am mindful of everything by force.

Haldol injection-deities reside in antipsychotics

I believe that certain deities are inside the antipsychotics, and you get their blessings when you take the pill or the shot

Soulless Bots/ Solipsism/ Matrix/ Truman Show

As a child I thought that all beings are soulless bots, created by God to test me

Others are a problem for me. They are soulless robots, or actors, or my self expanded, or just one alien with infinite forms

Captain Beefheart's mustache and Meher Baba’s mustache

 I have two kinds of mustaches that influence and affect me: Captain Beefheart’s mustache, intertwined with my brain neurons, doing damage, and Meher Baba’s mustache, blessing me

90mg abilify, 80mg zyprexa, 80mg haldol etc.

With ex pdoc I was taking high doses, for example: 90mg abilify, 80mg zyprexa, 80mg haldol etc. Now with my current pdoc, we lower doses, gradually, and I am better than ever. It's the first time I have clarity and peace, despite the voices. Voices haven't vanished completely, but they are positive and divine. My ex pdoc was probably experimenting on me. He used to say that I am strong as a bull for taking such huge doses. Wtf? 

2η σχολή της Βιέννης, Stockhausen, τατουαζ

Όταν πρωτοάκουσα την δεύτερη σχολή της Βιέννης, έπαθα μεγάλη πλάκα. Με άλλαξε ριζικά. Η τριάδα Schoenberg (πατήρ), Berg (υιός) και Webern (άγιο πνεύμα). Όλη η ποίηση μου άλλαξε. Ήθελα να κάνω στην ποίηση, ό, τι έκανε ο Webern στη μουσική. Από άποψη μουσικής, δεν ήθελα να συνθέσω τίποτα. Είχαν όλα ειπωθεί. Και αργότερα που προστέθηκε ο ογκόλιθος Stockhausen, δεν υπήρχε περιθώριο για άλλη μουσική έκφραση.
Επίσης, με τον ίδιο τρόπο με στιγμάτισαν οι Mayhem και Darkthrone. Με τον ίδιο τρόπο, αφήνοντας με ενεό, παρόλο που ήταν τόσο διαφορετικά είδη. Είχαν εκφράσει κάτι ανέκφραστο μέσα μου.
Για να μην πω για το grandiose έργο του Sun Ra. Grandiose, grandiose, όπως κι η όπερα του Stockhausen, "Licht".
Ο, τι με σημάδεψε, το έκανα τατου, γιαυτό έχω: Sun Ra- space is the place, Licht (Stockhausen), Stooges-funhouse, Trout Mask Replica by Captain Beefheart, Mayhem, Darkthrone, Goddess Annette, Solus Ipse, Omism.